whats going on ?! rainie totally changed ,i am no longer that innocent ,good girl @.@ i really change alot ,really alot ! why am i acting like this ?i hate myself !
why am i so kind to everyone ?
why am i the only one always give in ?
why am i still trust her that she has a heart ?
why am i have to like him ?
why am i never shut back ?

after goin to the leadership camp -nacli ,i realised alot of things and personally i do alot of reflection on myself too !
realisation : not everyone is pure
i am more stupid person in this world :p
talk less and be more observant
i am a very rude person
reflection: should speak softly ( haha yep i will try my best)
i need to have patience
dont be so rude

i never felt that lonely before , i need to seek for a partner all the time ):
i really think that i a failer ...

HAHA moment ^^ yeah :on the second day night ,i went to other room and sleep with other girls ,we have a wonderful conversation on that night >.O shi~ it is a secret >.^