whats going on ?! rainie totally changed ,i am no longer that innocent ,good girl @.@ i really change alot ,really alot ! why am i acting like this ?i hate myself !
why am i so kind to everyone ?
why am i the only one always give in ?
why am i still trust her that she has a heart ?
why am i have to like him ?
why am i never shut back ?

after goin to the leadership camp -nacli ,i realised alot of things and personally i do alot of reflection on myself too !
realisation : not everyone is pure
i am more stupid person in this world :p
talk less and be more observant
i am a very rude person
reflection: should speak softly ( haha yep i will try my best)
i need to have patience
dont be so rude

i never felt that lonely before , i need to seek for a partner all the time ):
i really think that i a failer ...

HAHA moment ^^ yeah :on the second day night ,i went to other room and sleep with other girls ,we have a wonderful conversation on that night >.O shi~ it is a secret >.^

EL ~
yeah ~
today is the 2nd day ,never call him ,dun no if i should be happy or ...
is time to wake up !!!!!
he dun like you ):
he is just a passer-by ,your Mr right is still waiting for you somewhere (yunho~)
hehe^^

今天是第2天，第2天我没打电话给他，心情很失落，不过我不要再当笨蛋了...他不爱我，我再怎么努力也没用，放手是最好不过的不是吗？！加油吧！把他从你的❤中抽出来吧！不是说天涯何处无芳草吗？他只不过是一朵花，你所需要的可是一棵可以为自己遮风挡雨的树呀！傻瓜清醒一点吧~

today xinying,nickish and i went to trent's house , the street soccer court to celebrate his birthday .the whole celebration is so boring bec of that stupid terence's present la~ actually we plan to smash the cake onto trent's face one ,but his brother is there ,i scare later he say that i am violent .in the end ,end up me and xy play against one another and the boys play against each other =_="
i totally hate it !!!!!!!we wait for the stupid 113 for 30mins !!!! when the bus arrived ,guess what i saw? the two brotheres were on the bus ,smiling happily ,lol...
Happy Birthday Trent (:

i would never let u go ,if the history repeated

hi sorry i am back ^^today we celebrating NDP in school ,well is damn boring,but it ends quite early today as compare to normal school days^^after school i was heading for KFC with Megan and XY,but in the end ,we joined SSC bec we saw our class' boys playing soccer there ..
that person injuried ,his left eye was scretched by his spectacle while he was trying to block the ball ,unfortunatelly ,the ball hit his spectacle off and cause it cut the eye,i was ran and fellowed him all the way to the mama shop ,to buy tissue and cool can drink for him ,i thou his eye was bleeding but it just swellen only ,was quite angry when he throw my tissue on the floor .
insist persauded him to put the cool can above the swellen part in case it swells worse ,but he just refuse to ..,i was tracing him all the way to persaude him again and again...stupid !!!! why must i care? i even called his brother to tell him he was injuried ,and take care of him ...
i hate myself ,if i study harder ,my english wouldn't be that suck ,then i can persaude him to do what i told ,not face him every time with speechless ,and seeing him slip off my side with injuried eye,and i cant help ...
i wouldn't let u off next tme ,if it happened again ...i will make sure u listen to me ...hehe ^^( sound so fierce )

just now i flick thought my blog,i realised my life changes from 2 january 2010^^
start to laugh and tear...the happiest time is this year March ,i must in love during that time (: u r the only one dun worry ^~^

i like this(:

happiest thing^^

was playing DBSK-i believe^^ tought by XY

wee~sometime i just feel so weary ...now a day i feel i become moody easily but i cant tell the reason why i am like that and even i know i also refuse to share ...haha rainie is changed ,now then i realise i am not that one i know ...

today is my luckier day in school ,everything is so great and exciting ,i was blushing all the away bec he was just sitting besides me ^^ i meet his eyes ,feeling the love of him ...wow~ so shy

o.o" i am crying like hell,it is so touching lo ...bec i am watching next stop,happiness^^

the world only have u and me ^^

today i felt super embrassing one lo, we r dancing jazz infront of the boys ...lol WTH !!!!!!! LUCKLY ,he is not there if not i comform not move de lo ^^

actually the jazz is fun and sex ,i loving it^^

yesterday night i was falling sick ,high fever ,head ach and sort thoart ...
thanks for my sister ,she taKe care of me through out the whole night and help me massage to reduce the amount of pain of my exhausted body ^^
oh~is just like a dream ,my body tempareture went normal ,but yesterday night i suddenly feel so helpless and lonely ,my tears went down my cheek uncontrollable .if \without my sister's care ,i think i now still suffering from that stupid high fever attack leh ...^^

lol...dun no whts going on ..wish i can find u soon ...my Mr right ^^

walao that bitch !!!!!!fuck her ass hole la .....jb hates her !!!!!!!! wah kind of person is this !!!!she didnt allow me to watch anime ,thats fine ,but she also refuse to let me watch youtube ,she said computer is not for watching drama one !WTH i wonder why this world got this kind person !!!!!she watch every move i make ,critise everything i do ...i really dun want to stay with her!!! God can u help me ?i pray amen !!!i really cant take it any more ,cant switching on the light to read story book!only she can use the fan at the living-room ! turn on the music loudly in the early morning ,pls lo she dun want sleep but people want to sleep lo,wht kind of person is this ??? using computer also scold ; cant laugh at any funny stuff online ;cant eat before she eat!!!!!!!
sorry for scolding so many vulgar ,just cant stop hating her .....
she is the only one i cant forgive and the only person i hate so deeply !!!!!!!
also,is the first person i hate and the only one ...
if u ask me ,i hate patty or not ? i will definally say NO ,but it doesn't mean that i can forgive her and accept all the things she did and she said ...it really hurts ,i treat her with kind and care ,really i did !!!

er...i want to sleep ..hehe^^i dun no why i felt super nervous when i c him ,luckly yin lost her house key cant open the door ,if not @.@ i really dun no how to face him >< scaring sia~!!!!!

holiday seems boring ,but thanks all my freinds for bring me all the sorts of funny stuff ^^ seriously,jacky them they r really horny and abit sort ,but they r really kind person ^^ i choose to be blind ,only see person's good sides,sometime just abit more torlerace would make things turn wonderful and amazing ....^^
i dun care what people think about me ,seeing and hearing might not be the truth, you need to listen and feel with your heart^^thank you xy for trusting me and understand me (:

lol..that stupid jacky la ,spoilt our plan !!!!!!!

one more day !!!!!!!yeah ^^ jamila ,jas & i were goin to bugis buy clothes ,then after that i maybe go watch movie with emo ,jackey ,songjian them o.o yeah >.> hope emo dun turn me down ,rainie gets sad easily ):

今天又有顺风车搭啦，跟emo一起去闯哟^~^

bored bored bored ...stupid why am i still cant forget about him ...seriously i dun like holiday,i prefer school more bec can c him everyday ^^ pui lol i think i should go wash my brain le ...


















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cheer up ^^ i will survive well with my own hands

i am feeling unwell ,having fever ): ..sign..(~oh)
yesterday nigh i suffered gastric ...my parents seen to care me a bit more now ,last time when i told them my heart pain ,they just pretend nevr hear it ^^ it is so funny right ,they nevr care about me at all...i hate them... they used to control me ,blame me ,now i can even see thought them ,their hearts are in black with rotten parts ...

let it be a new start ...i chose to step out of the circle ,that may let me feel more awake and happier ...he is not that one whom god has chosen to be in my side ,i shall wait...and let him go...

everything from now is a mystery^^

sorry guys i cant upload the pic on facebook ...i wil try it next time ^^
today happy^^

today the EL camp is damn bored leh ...jj and that MRT keep on "disiao" me lo..they watch porn then scold me say i watch ,crazy lo @.@and they keep on acting gay infront of me ,siao la ,think i will jealous mah ??pls lo,they r just a retard to me ^^
O.o yeah tomow i am goin to that jungle thingy instead of Shatek leh @.^ oh yeah
i am so happy ^^ bec i love nature and pair with Xy ...

today is another great day to me ^^ i enjoy every moment ,finally i found the kind of palm to fit with my cherry tomota@.* it is so yummi
the old uncle was having fever now ): he had fallen sick 3 times already since i knew him ...so weak ...hope he will get well soon^^

this is my father -FY...he is a gay^^ jk ..that strewberry bag is mine

today's JFY is wonderful^^ expecailly the game @.^ everyone seens enjoying it so much .laugh non-stop@.^ thanks God gives us this wonderful home@.*

keerthana
xinying^^
jamila@.*

this is me ^^

sorry ,yesterday cant use comp^^
yesterday xinying ,MRT,my dog & i were taking the same bus home,MRT& the dog was just sitting behind of us ..they very noisy ,keep on "gajiao" xinying and me !!!!!
and they even copied what i said .Xinying's head was almost "ochaer" bec she accidently knock on that MRT's hand .haha^^
i finally realised how small my hand was after i comparing the hand size with that two boys (:

today we seen each other as invisible ,she seens quite happy without us .i am so happy about that too^^
i just scare that XY would feel unconfortable ,hope she can get over her and shown her true smile ^^

i love everyone^^ for me friendship is the most important thing in my life ^.* u(friend) r the gift of God@.< with u i never feel life is boring^^ kiss u with my loVe @.^ my friend

hi~(sighn) why she so fake ??i treat her with love and care ,in the end ,she keep on back stab me ..WHAT I DO !!!why she always push a blame ?has she ever look into the mirror ,reflect what she had done ??
U DONT FIT TO BE MY FRIEND !!!!!! if u continue pretending like this ,i will walk away without a return...

oh ..rainie is so happy today ^^
it is a bit irritating that all the boys from my class all call me pervert !!! lol...bec of that stupis MRT & pig oil la ,bastard@.@ they ownself "biantai" lo ,still keep on push blame say i sick !!!
if i got chance i will still chose him ^^

i just cant understand ....hi yo ..i shouldnt think that much if he really likes me ,there is no point for him to lie to me say he had gf ...
give up !!! since he is already have gf le,what is the point of trying hard ?? i dun want to be a bitch ,snatching other people's bf ^^
so pls remember this ,no matter how deep i love/like that person ,once i know he had gf ,i will back off with silence and nevr disturb him anymore ,but my heart will definilly leave a space for him ,untill it dead down ....
this is me ^~^

sorry i left my blog emty so so many weeks .actually is bec of SA, dun really have much time to post ..hehe..actually i am very slack la ,didnt study much ^^

i believe perserverance makes everything prefect

this is my birthday present ^^